Have you ever had that feeling that you just want to run away? Not to any particular destination, not with any goal in mind except to forget all you're leaving behind? Do you ever sit at your desk and pray that one day you can live on a beach and let the cool ocean breeze penetrate deep within your mind and release the burdens that make your life unbearable at times?
I really thought this was going to be my year. I have great people in my life and a job and all of the luxuries I could want based on my simple-girl mentality. Yes, there will always be bumps that will slow me down, but never anything to put a halt on this production that I call my life. Suddenly, without my controlling it, things spiraled out of my control. Things happened, both good and bad, that stopped me from moving forward but didn't push me back, either. I'm just standing still...watching the entire world function before my eyes and move ahead in their races, while I patiently await the opportunity to do so myself.
Now, I crave silence. I want to run away from the stand-still my life has become. I want peace with no interruptions so I can clear my mind and make the decisions that will start this production again and let it flow freely to get me on the path in which I belong.
Someday, things will be back in order and I will shine again. Until then, I anxiously wait for my chance, for things to quiet down, for that break in the wind so I can breathe again.